The Crosswords

its been a long time

2011-09-23T08:05:00.000-07:00

its been a long time since i wrote anything aite.. counting the days to be 24! tak tau la nak suka ke ape ke? haha.. kalau ade org nak bg present ke.. suke la kan.. ade kekasih hati nak celebrate ke kan.. suke la.. sehelai seperut (sepinggang) je.. tak dapek nak nolong. so.. dh kecik sikit.. we'll see how it works la kot?? some people notice.. but still.. i'm not sure if they actually can accept or not.. that's hard to believe.. oh well.. semua itu dusta! haha..

kekurangan kasih sayang!

2011-05-06T06:28:00.000-07:00

Semasa berceritakan perihal bapa ku yg sentiasa bertukar lokasi bekerja, memandangkan dia seorang ashker(askar - kalau korg tak tau la)! :D ada orang bertanya.. "so, u ni kekurangan kasih sayang ayah ke?"....

That is when i start thinking.. am i? let see.. i do get wat i want(but not all the time..), i am so manja (as i'm the last child in the family and i'm the only daughter..), and....?? and ape?? my mum and dad (back to those days when my dad was still working) used to go dinner at nite all the time.. and both my brother are bz with work and colleges.. they didnt live with us.. and so.. i have to survive by my own.. do things my own.. find my own food.. bla.. blaa.. blaa.. talk to myself.. hahaha.. but then.. i still cant make my own decision.. haiyaa...

jadik... kesimpulannye... adakah aku ini, kekurangan kasih sayang??? hmmmm...

baru

2011-03-21T07:17:00.000-07:00

BARU! layout baru! commitment baru! barang baru! weight baru! obsession baru! post baru!

Layout Baru : sikit-sikit lama-lama jadi bukit. nanti-nanti baru buat layout lagi cantik sikit! (waaahh it ryhmes la!)

Commitment Baru : Akan Datang / Coming Soon! by the time, i shud have ready a red carpet for it.(I hope so)

Barang Baru : Bile tah nak ade.. duit asik habih dilaburkan pada body saja! cun nye tak jugak! (Tension jap..)

Weight Baru : tak de baru sgt.. referring to "Layout Baru". Sikit-sikit lama-lama jadi bukit. (bersabar je la ye)

Obsession Baru : my new obsession! making scrapbook! digitally! FUN!! I LOVE COLOURS!!

back to square one

2011-02-12T05:44:00.000-08:00

and so I started to date again. its a blind date anyway. met him online.. he was OK.. the the first date was okey.. but i'm not sure if is there going to be a second time.. he's not like wat i imagine.. but i'm cool.. i hope he is also cool about me too.. well, i'm getting tired of getting to know with someone over and over again.. i'm not hoping anything from this person.. but just i hope that he's not like others.. coz it hurt me a lot..

WORRY!

2011-01-22T06:14:00.001-08:00

i am so worry! worry of wat? everything.. feels like crying! but i know cry will not solve everything.. i always wanted to improve myself.. but i dunno y.. it is so hard for me to do so! malaskah aku?? or aku semakin tua semakin lembab?? coz i feel so.. its like there's a lot of things to improve but so little effort! i am so disappoint with myself i cud kill myself(its only a metaphor) hahaha.. hmm.. :\

lagi luahan hati..

2010-12-06T04:12:00.000-08:00

hai hai hai! kembali kite ke segmen lagi luahan hati~

1st - oH! sudah tidak tahan dgn keriakan dan kesombongaon anda..

2nd - "betik tu kalau tak potong.. takde sapa nak mkn" hmm.. aku selalu buat bende org lain tompang sekaki ok je.. asal lak potong betik pon nak berkira? susah ar gini..

3rd - kenapa golongan si polan 1 asyik nak mengejar golongan si polan A.. sedangkan golongan si polan A selalu tak menghargai atau bersyukur atau tidak puas dgn apa yang dia ada? tanpa disedari golongan si polan B ni jgk la yang tumpang sedih utk si polan 1. (JGN RISAU. LUAHAN INI MMG TIDAK DIWAJIBKAN UTK DIFAHAMI OLEH MANA-MANA GOLONGAN) apa-apa pon semoga si polan 1 akan sentiasa diredhai.. dan si polan A.. hmmm.. kejar lah apa yang anda nak kejar..selagi boleh.. si polan B.. all the best!

Listen

2010-11-20T22:27:00.000-08:00

people hardly listen to what i am saying. are my voice not clear enough? or they just didn't notice me there talking?

Shontelle - Impossible

2010-11-12T22:30:00.000-08:00

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did
And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did
And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know
Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love is worst
Empty promises will wear
I know (i know)
And know when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy (i was happy)
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

Sedih, Marah, Kecewa

2010-10-30T19:58:00.000-07:00

am i getting my PMS.. or it is just me that having an emotional breakdown.. sedih! sebab menjd mangsa keadaan.. Marah! sbb dipinggir kan.. Kecewa, sebab semua yang aku lakukan tak memuaskan semua pihak..

Sedih,
aku ditinggalkan untuk menjadi "back up" utk dirinya..

Sedih,
bila aku cuba untuk menjadi yang terbaik.. tapi masih tidak memuaskan..

Sedih,
bila teringat balik semua bende yg pernah terjadi.. yang boleh menjatuhkan confident level aku..

Marah,
sebab aku tak suke perasaan cemburu yg ada dlm diri aku.. sbb ia akan buat aku sedih..

Marah,
sebab salah ke aku bertanya?

Marah,
sebab selalu dipinggirkan..

Kecewa,
sebab tak dihargai..

Kecewa,
dengan diri sendiri yang tak mampu utk menjadi yang terbaik..

Kesimpulannya, Sedih Marah & Kecewa semua bende! mcmana nak buat ye.. sama2 la kite berfikir..

WATEVER

2010-10-15T07:47:00.000-07:00

apahal lak dorg nak tanya aku "dah kurus ke blom"???? gaya mcm aku ni pegi sedut lemak.. apahal lak korg nak kecoh kalau aku nak kurus ke apa..??? do u think its funny??? its funny because i'm having a big dream to be slim??? so kalau usaha aku ni tak menjd.. korg nak gelakkan aku??? ek ele.. bila aku makin gemok korg kata aku makin gemok.. kalau aku tak blh nak kurus.. korg nak gelakkan aku ke apa?? ishhhh! its always because of all this things.. erghhhh!!!!

a lot of thing.. but so little cash

2010-10-13T06:26:00.000-07:00

salam hari rabu.. post kali ni takde images la.. pasal aku nak cr images pasal duit tak jmp.. hahaha.. kesimpulannye.. nak cerita pasal kewangan aku la ni.. semenjak dah kene byr "kereta" ni.. tak ckup je duit aku.. savings pon dah berkurangan.. kene lah start kumpul balik.. byk nye wishlist baruuuuuuu dlm hidup ni.. purse tak beli lg.. pehtu tetiba plak rasa nak gune blackberry.. pehtu.. rasa nak beli computer letak kat umah.. dan macam2 lagi.. desire tu mcm desire aku nak mkn la.. dah la tgh diet ni.. so pathetic.. dah 2 bln ni.. takde nmpk perubahan pon? :( sedey.. takpe.. pelan2 kayuh la k.. jgn putus asa.. katenyee...

burpday!

2010-10-01T23:27:00.000-07:00

"HEY SHAWTY!! ITS UR BURFDAY! WE'RE GONNA CLEAN THE HOUSE LIKE ITS NOT UR BDAY!!!"

-Tidak Ada Tajuk-

2010-10-01T06:33:00.000-07:00

walaupon tajuk kite untuk post ini adalah "tidak ada tajuk" tidak bermaksud tidak ada apa yang hendak diluahkan disini ye.. adaa... banyaaakkk.. terlampau banyaaakk.. tp blom tentu lah aku nak bgtau kan.. kahakhakha! first of all, mcm biasa la.. frust yg teramat sgt bila berat aku masih maintain.. apa la nak buat lagi ni.. haihh.. mls nak cite la kaedah-kaedah nya.. harini je.. aku makan terung bakar je tau malam.. haishh.. mcm biasa la.. beauty is pain! Next is, there's a lot of things that i would love to do but i dun get the chance to do.. such as, main-main ngan photoshop.. donlod/watch movies la.. reading books.. etc. bukan nak kata malas.. tp mcm pack je.. anyway, tomorrow(2nd oct) is my burfday.. as usual, i'm sure its like any ordinary day.. siap kene kemas rumah lg esok.. aiseymen.. bosan nye.. berlalu mcm tu je.. mcm hari raya la jgk.. every year pon berlalu mcmtu je.. and i'm sure mummy forgot about it.. and i am very sure she will suddenly remember it 1 or 2 hours before 12am the next day.. lagi-lagi esok dia keje.. daddy? haha.. lagi aku malas nak cite.. lagi teruk.. tak pnh buat apa pon.. plg busuk pon dia just hint ckp "eh.. eh.. bday sapa harini" lps tu.. dia dah suh aku lipat kain lah.. itu lah.. ini lah.. oh god.. bila la bende mcmni nak berubah dlm hidup aku..?? - HAPPY 23RD BIRTHDAY TO ME! semoga hari yang mendatang akan sentiasa membawa tuah.. :D dan jgn lupa.. cpt2 la dpt boifren.. tayah la celebrate birthday mcm celebrate hari raya lg.. amin! heheheh..

the boring hari raya & weight problem

2010-09-16T01:51:00.000-07:00

hari raya ari tu balik kampung la.. mana lagi kan.. and as usual.. aktivitinye adalah.. tidur+tv+main game+makan! its been years since we declare those activities are our main activities for hari raya! pathetic kan?? wat do u guys actually do masa hari raya?? tv pon tak berapa menarik hari raya ni.. kalau tak senario.. mr.bean.. tak mr.bean.. cite hantu.. tak cite hantu.. bebudak raja lawak punye cite.. takde la yang menarik.. dan yang paling aku tak ngerti.. ngapain line maxis takde kat kpg! sudah la aku TER-purchase internet 3g utk sebln! hadoi.. abih duit den.. haihh.. oh well.. need to plan something big next year.. so that tak bosan..

everybody knows that i got weight problem! so i am going to tell to the whole world that it's stressing me out!! stress giler kowt bila aku dah sedaya upaya to control my eating.. pegi gym.. treatment.. etc.. and still the weight is increasing! TENSION gileer ok!! org kata tak mkn nasi boleh kurus kan.. kite tgk la nnt! ni baru bulan pertama kan.. so chill dulu.. kite tgk next month mcmana.. for the time being kene la hadapi TENSION tersebut.. mana nye yg aku tak tension.. bukan aku tak jaga.. i SUFFERED ok!! but nobody seems to understand.. all they do is pushing me! oh god!!! I'm working on ittttt!!!! aku lagi frust bila tak menjd tau tak!! erghhh!!!

salam aidilfitri!

2010-09-04T14:43:00.000-07:00

salam aidilfitri uols! ngeee! raya! raya! raya! lagu-lagu raya berkumandang di radio.. membuatkan aku terasa tertipu.. dan sememangnye aku tak suke lagu raya yang menyayat hati.. pertama sekali sbb aku tak suka lagu yg emosi terlebih sedangkan kite patut bergembira dihari raya! secondly, aku rasa tertipu dgn keadaan sebenarnye yang esok blom hari raya! errghhh! tertipuuuuu!

shopping! semlm pegi shopping lagi.. tapi tak tau nak beli apa.. then aku beli seluar jeans hitam saje la.. byk je lg wishlist aku blom abis.. tak terbeli.. found this bag at charles&keith.. blh thn la.. tp tak sempat pulak nak beli smlm.. its bcs i get extra treatment.. so jdlah extra time.. yesterday were disaster!! was supposed to meet alia and azalea.. but then, azalea cant make it.. and me.. a bit late! but actually SGT late.. heheh.. sorry cik papau! muahs! tp jmp la jgk.. lepak kat mamak..

putih gets her toilet today.. after a few month of using a full used of house spaces as her toilet.. and i'm like TAK TAHAN lagi nak basuh hari2.. haihh! notty girl btul la that kitty.. and now dah dpt cat litter.. dibuatnye mcm playground.. duk main2.. apa nak jd la ngan baby ni.. BITES! br tau.. geee...

2010-08-31T05:32:00.000-07:00

Here are my wishlist :

1- new bedsheets
2- sandals / wedges
3- perfume
4- bags
5- fossil purse
6- elianto's
7- diva accessories

haa.. yang merah tu dah berjaya beli! kopak den! kopak! tapi takpe.. bukan selalu! ngeh ngeh ngeh! tak dan la nak post gmbr shopping sekali maleh den nak snap! tp saya sgt sukeee! hmm yang lagi 4 tu.. bila ek nak beli.. elianto tu murah je.. mggu dpn boleh beli.. diva pon sama.. bags.. hmm.. kalau ada bajet lebih.. purse? haihhh.. yang satu ni aku penin! dah bape bukan dok hold! tak dapek nak beli.. sedeyyyyyy.. next month ok! hehehe.. sure punye ni! hutang pon byk nak byr bulan ni.. nak sedekah lagi.. duit raya lagi.. aiseymen! takpe takpe.. mudah-mudahan rezeki bertambah kelak! AMIN!:D

a lot in mind

2010-08-26T21:38:00.000-07:00

there's a lot in my mind rite.. a lot of things.. a lot of surprises.. and a lot of dissapoinment too.. well.. i've lose a bit of my weight.. been stop eating rice for a few weeks already.. and going to the gym.. doing some treatment also.. hopefully its worth it.. even though its puasa month.. ku gagah kan jua! :D hee... KERJA? hmm.. a bit dissapointing this few days.. going to have a bunch of pressure next year.. probably.. if jadi la.. hehe.. boleh dikira rezeki.. boleh juda di kira beban.. but what the heck.. hidup ni kalau takde keje.. apa pon tak dpt.. all u have to do is maintain! and everything is going to be alrite.. yeah.. mmg la bos tu mcm cool + baik + positive.. but sometimes he's unpredictable.. well of coz everybody want their bosses to like them.. not to exclude me.. i want him to see what i'm capable to do(which i think he sees).. its just sometimes u never know wat is in his mind.. :( tak pe.. everythings gonna be alrite.. if u can see that i've change my layout again.. and i love it so much! cantik kan? siap ada signature.. hehe.. been thinking to write with more creativity.. but then, that capability can only come once in a blue moon.. thats the thing about me.. i can be smart, i can be creative, but there is some times that i can be stupid like really really really stupid.. and i dislike that! :( ok la.. its not too late to wish selamat berpuasa rite.. so.. SELAMAT BERPUASA EVERYONE! wait for my raya card ok! :) SMILES!

saya nak...

2010-08-07T07:42:00.000-07:00

wah! kemain rajin aku skrg nak update blog ek.. dah tak tau nak buat apa.. jadik.. ber-blogging saje lah buat masa ni.. since weekend aku pon cam haram jadah je activity nye.. [giler frust!]
anyway, since the title for this post adlh "saya nak".. jadi, berdiri nya saya disini.. malam hari sabtu yg agak tak tau nak buat apa.. ingin kunyatakan hasrat hati ini.. [omputih panggil "wishlist"]

Apa yang miss chabee nak?
- saya nak purse FOSSIL yg berharga rm200+ [maheiiiiiii]

Lagi.. miss chabee nak apa ek?
- saya nak kasut sukan baru!

miss chabee kan.. sbnrnye kan.. byk bende nak beli.. tp tak tau la apa bende nye tu.. ya ampun.. very langsi la u! plus.. aku mls giler kot nak list down.. td sblm tulis blog semgt giler nak type.. la ni.. aku dah ngantuk.. sumpah malas! hahahahah.. konon2 nak buat mcm blog org lain la.. tampal2 gmbr.. tak menjd jgk kau ni.. adoi.. dah la.. aku nak tdo! selamat malam la ye pada sesapa pon [almaklum la.. takde sapa aku nak ckp selamat malam.. mcmni pon jd la.. ] hahahaha..

hari-hari mendatang

2010-08-06T06:45:00.000-07:00

a lot of things these few days.. been keeping up with work.. gym.. and some private activity.. and semua pon tak ter-buat.. same goes to my weekend.. to the gym in the morning.. and private activity in the evening.. there goes my weekend!! WASTED!! how boring my life were.. takpe.. bersusah-susah dulu.. bersenang-senang kemudian (they said) they also said "beauty is pain".. i'm feeling it rite now! tp mcm takde hasil je! syiiiishhh!! pegi gym everyweek.. but it remains the same! how pathetic! takpe.. sbr.. sbr.. baru sebln.. rindu nak buat all those pictures editing.. tp sgt bz utk bergmbran.. lagi lagi bergmbr di ofis.. mcm dah takde view lain.. macamana nak edit.. gmbr pon takde.. so bosan~

OK! lupekan~

i dun remember posting story about my adorable lil baby.. PUTIH! yes.. PUTIH! She's my new kitten! she glows.. she's white.. and she's witty! tak sabar nak tunggu dia besar.. so that i can hug her puas2.. rite now.. she so little.. suka lari sana sini.. tak sempat tangkap! gewaaaaaaaaaaaammmmmm la baby! BITES! eheheh..

okey.. next!

puasa nak dkt! alahai!.. mls nyee.. yg amat.. "ASTAGHFIRLLAH" teruk btul la mls mls pula.. biasa la tu.. hehe.. tp hopefully boleh la kecik sikit time raya nnt.. pnat dgr old2 people kat kpg tu duk ckp ikut sedap mulut longkang dorg nak ngate aku.. mcm-lah anak korang tu cun sgt..! nasib baik je tu jodoh dorg dah smp.. takde bgus nye pon.. hahah.. *rupenye mulut aku lagi longkang! KEJI! hahahah.. so wat! do i look like i damn care?

okay! dah puas berlongkang.. sehingga kite bertemu lagi di hari dan waktu yg berbeza-beza (haruslah beza.. td br je aku ckp.. byk bende aku buat lately.. mmg tak la hari2 aku post kan.. plus.. mana ada org tulis blog ada specific day sahaja utk tulis blog! giler! ahahahaha) TOODELOOO!

all this while

2010-07-27T06:32:00.000-07:00

its been a while since i wrote something here.. sorry journal.. i've been really bz.. like seriously bz.. and i missed my own house?? haihhh... so teruk kan? well, this few weeks asik pegi site je.. site jauh2 plak tu.. from east cost to north to south.. everyweek berturut-turut.. balik hari pulak tu.. ni br btul btul kerja.. huihhh.. bz kerja satu hal.. bz pegi gym satu hal.. leteyyyyy!! dah la balik lmbt everyday.. kalau balik awal.. kene pegi gym pulak.. mmg la okey je pegi gym tu.. masalah nye.. bila plk aku nak spent time kat rumah?? sabtu pg pon kene pegi gym jgk.. nak kurus.. kene la bekorban.. katanye.. hahahah.. hmm.. ok! back to the story.. today went to johor for a site meeting.. with electrical and PM's.. no bos.. no sabira.. memula cam terrified jgk.. but then.. everything was fine! :) reach home safe and sound.. :D hehehe.. rasa mcm mls mls je nak taip pepjg.. thats all for today.. buhbye everyone!
p/s: kalau rajin lagi.. nnt i cerita psl ehem ehem.. :D

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2010-06-02T07:37:00.000-07:00

Lirik Lagu Rossa – Hati Yang Kau Sakiti

jangan pernah katakan bahwa
cintamu hanya untukku
karna kini kau telah membaginya
* maafkan bila memang kini
harus kutinggalkan dirimu
karna hatiku selalu kau lukai

** tak ada lagi yang bisa ku lakukan tanpamu
ku hanya bisa mengatakan apa yang ku rasa

reff:
ku menangis membayangkan
betapa kejamnya dirimu atas diriku
kau duakan cinta ini
kau pergi bersamanya

ku menangis melepaskan
kepergian dirimu dari sisi hidupku
harus slalu kau tahu
aku lah hati yang telah kau sakiti

repeat *, **
repeat reff

ku menangis
harus slalu kau tahu
aku lah hati yang telah kau sakiti

honkie honkie

2010-05-29T06:27:00.000-07:00

hye journal! long time no write haa.. yeap! went to HONG KONG last week for a convention. HONG KONG was fine.. not great.. but fine.. only for 3 days, with 2 days of convention.. only 1 day to go around.. nothing much can explore.. food! halal food! difficult to find! kalau ada pon.. mmg sungguh tak sedap la kan.. the convention! BORING! disebabkan company yg byr.. kene jgk appreciate and learn something la.. berhabuk mat salleh spiking.. mmg aku tak phm la kan.. sikit2 boleh lg.. kalau dah tak phm.. mmg ngantuk la aku.. waste of time sungguh la aku ni! :( mcm melepaskan batuk di tangga.. 2 hari yg sgt meletihkan.. hari ke 3 plg best la.. harus la! pegi disneyland kan.. heheh.. semua expenses kat HK.. bos aku yg byr.. disneyland included! shopping je guna duit sendiri.. malu jgk.. tp dia insist.. ok la tu kan? hehehe.. disneyland was great.. not awesome but great.. :) shopping pon sgt awesome ok! bought some souvenior for my frens.. my brother.. and my mom ask for handbag lg! for u mum.. aku beli la jgk.. and i bought KENNETH COLE watch for daddy.. worth rm500! he's like really terkejut! i dun mind.. its not that i bought him things all the time.. :P kalau mummy.. a bit kedekut.. bcoz i always buy things for her.. like she used to buy things for me dulu la kan.. love u mum! hehehe.. 3 days tak ckupppp!! mau jalan2 lg.. :(

ckup utk menyatakan perasaan ku dikala ini.

2010-05-02T00:21:00.000-07:00

***LYRICS***
Youre everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you couldve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

Youre the only one I wish I could forget
The only one Id love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, youre the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I cant erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know Ill be there at the end of the day

I dont wanna be without you babe
I dont want a broken heart
Dont wanna take a breath with out you babe
I dont wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I dont want to love you in no kind of way no no
I dont want a broken heart
And I dont wanna play the broken-hearted girlNo...No
No broken-hearted girl
Im no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now Ive always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say youve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel youre not deserving me
And still youre in my heart
But youre the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I dont complain
Cause Ive been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I dont hate you
Im happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I dont wanna be without you babe
I dont want a broken heart
Dont wanna take breath with out you babe
I dont wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I dont want to love you in no kind of way no no
I dont want a broken heart
And I dont wanna play the broken-hearted girl...NoNo
No broken-hearted girl

Now Im at a place I thought Id never beOooo
Im living in a world thats all about you and meyeah
Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you
yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh

I dont wanna be without my baby
I dont wanna a broken heart
Dont want to take a breath with out my baby
I dont wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I dont want to love you in no kind of way..No..No
I dont want a broken heart
I dont wanna play the broken-hearted girl..No..No..
No broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl Nono
No broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

this is serious!

2010-04-28T06:44:00.000-07:00

i swear this is real and serious! like hell!! i need to go to HONG KONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and no.. i'm not happy with that! i wanted to go to the other country.. but not in this situation! just me and my bos?? and the only girl.. HELL NO!!! how am i going to survive?? knowing myself.. i'm not good with new environments.. plus! its HONG KONG la wey!! timeline lain dong! oh god.. help me!! how do i survive... :(

the sun has lost it shines

2010-04-27T06:20:00.000-07:00

apa kene ngene tulisan aku harini dgn tajuk di atas.. hanya aku saja yg paham.. hehe.. the sun did not lost it shines.. matahari sentiasa mengeluarkan sinarnya.. :) so do i.. no matter how difficult things are.. i will always smile and laugh.. 'kusangka panas hingga ke petang tp hujan ditengahari..' baru la namanye cuaca hujan tropika.. hahhaah.. ok! lupa kan..

the real story goes...

TODAY, my colleague was MC *again.. so my brother had to send me to the office..*again jgk.. for these few days, consecutively. and so, boss is not around.. and lucky i got nazira to accompany me! :D and i went to a meeting with client alone.. and i was really nervous.. like always.. i've always been nervous when it comes to meeting with clients.. [oh no! where does my confident goes!] but, alhamdulillah.. everything was fine.. :) great!! thats all for now.. ahahahaha... mesti bosan je kan blog aku ni.. takde yg menarik dlm hidup aku ini.. ciss!

hari ini, semalam, hari-hari sebelumnya

2010-04-19T06:57:00.000-07:00

today.. i realise that i'm a move on girl.. watever happen.. i will deal it with a smile on my face.. a smile that make others smile.. a smile that nobody knows wat lies beneath it.. and i believe, this smile are the reason i survive..

yesterday.. was the frustrated day.. yet enjoy.. another broken pieces had broke.. but i'm fine.. i'm ok! :)

the day before was always just fine.. not great.. not cool.. but fine.. :)

love, commitments, and religions

2010-02-26T06:41:00.000-08:00

aku baca satu novel ni.. it was about love.. commitments.. and religions.. tak habis baca lg.. tp ok la kan.. ada satu dialog tu.. where the guy ask the gurl (masa the guy nak break up ngan this gurl la sbb this gurl tak baik.. and the gurl tak puas ati..)

guy : kat mana u beli jewellery? dalam kedai or tepi jalan?
gurl : kedai la!
guy : knapa u tak beli tepi jalan je??
gurl : of coz sbb quality!
guy : so that's how a men chooses their wives!

and because of that.. i started to think.. (takder nye br terpikir.. byk kali dah pon pikir actually) lelaki kalau nak have fun.. nak pilih perempuan yang cantik.. sexy.. hawt.. nak tunjuk kat semua org yg dia boleh dpt pompuan hawt.. tp bila nak kawen.. cr yang tutup aurat.. baik.. alim.. the Prophet did said "it is self evident that a woman is sought for marriage for 4 reasons : her riches, her noblebirth, her beauty, and her religion. so get the pious one and strive hard to get"
tapikan.. zaman sekarang kalau nak cari yang mmg perfect mcmtu kan ke susah.. y not.. the guy bimbing that person to the right path.. kan lbh elok.. at least try la kan.. kalau tak boleh then cr la lain.. pada pendapat saya la kan..lelaki itu sepatutnye memperbaiki diri dahulu sebelum dia amik keputusan utk memilih perempuan yang lbh baik.. bukan kah lelaki perlu menjadi ketua? oh well... life is really complicated.. pusing2 pon still have to deal with it jgk.. its like a maze la.. we nvr know which is the right path.. kalau tersalah masuk jalan.. byk la rintangan nye.. dgn ada nye Allah S.W.T.. insyallah semua nye ok.. :P

things i wanna say.. but i cant say it out loud!

2010-02-18T05:20:00.000-08:00

first, stop aksing me to lost my weight!! if u know me.. u know i can lose it someday.. u just have to believe in me!! if u tot i cant do it.. so.. no matter how much u nagging on me.. i will not lose my weight!! so SHUT UP!!! I'M BLOODY TIRED OF HEARING THIS AND THAT!!!! wat is it with this losing weight anyway???

secondly, to the person who are jealous i'm being fren to her bestfren.. GET A LIFE!! i know u suck ur life.. but dun hate me coz i'm ur bestfren's fren! stupid BITCH! 100 kali kau.. 100 kali lg aku ok??

third, there's no third kot.. or COMING SOON LA..

[NOKTAH]

happiness

2010-02-11T06:39:00.000-08:00

seeing my frens and every person i know has finally found their soulmates makes me happy.. not just happy.. terharu jgk.. of coz! tak seronok ke when u finally found ur soulmate.. get married.. have a kid.. have ur own family.. *bukan aku kemaruk nak kawen ok! its just.. cant u see the hapiness of having ur own family.. with the one u love.. huh~.... layuuuu.. ekekeke.. i'm happy for them.. so happy.. kalau dgr ada kawan2 aku nak kawen ke.. tunang ke.. mesti aku dilanda satu perasaan mcm.. "awwwhhh! she found her soulmate" mesti seronok kan.. dah jmp soulmate.. :) *thinking and imagining* - Insyallah.. satu hari nanti.. :)

The Fray - Heartless

2010-02-09T07:11:00.000-08:00

[Chorus]
In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless...
How could you be so heartless?
Oh... How could you be so heartless?

[Verse 1]
How could you be so, cold as the winter wind when it breeze, yo
Just remember that you talkin' to me though
You need to watch the way you talkin' to me, yo
I mean after all the things that we've been through
I mean after all the things we got into
Hey yo, I know of some things that you ain't told me
Hey yo, I did some things but that's the old me
And now you wanna get me back and you gon' show me
So you walk around like you don't know me
You got a new friend, well I got homies
But in the end it's still so lonely

[Chorus]
In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless...
How could you be so heartless?
Oh... How could you be so heartless?

[Verse 2]
How could you be so Dr. Evil, you bringin' out a side of me that I dont know...
I decided we weren't gon' speak so
Why we up 3 A.M. on the phone
Why does she be so mad at me fo'
Homie I dont know, she's hot and cold
I won't stop, won't mess my groove up
'Cause I already know how this thing go
You run and tell your friends that you're leaving me
They say that they don't see what you see in me
You wait a couple months then you gon' see
You'll never find nobody better than me

[Chorus]
In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless...
How could you be so heartless?
Oh... How could you be so heartless?

[Verse 3]
Talkin', talkin', talkin', talk
Baby let's just knock it off
They don't know what we been through
They don't know 'bout me and you
So I got something new to see
And you just gon' keep hatin' me
And we just gon' be enemies
I know you can't believe
I could just leave it wrong
And you can't make it right
I'm gon' take off tonight
Into the night....

[Chorus]
In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless...
How could you be so heartless?
Oh... How could you be so heartless?

love, life and living it

2010-02-06T05:15:00.000-08:00

"baik sahaja tak cukup, cantik kene jugak"

finding love is like shopping.. quality is just not enough. u would also want it to look nice rite? sama mcm manusia.. baik sahaja tak cukup.. cantik pon kene jgk.. hmm.. susah kan kalau jd perempuan ni? kene cantik.. kene baik dan kene bijak. kalau takde semua tu susah la nak masuk ranking.. ;P aku ni lg la.. baik pon blom tentu.. cantik? apatah lagi.. agak-agak lah kan.. kalau semua 10,000 gadis kene beratur dan yang cantik depan yg tak cantik blakang.. agak nye aku ni ranking yang ke berapa la kan? pada pendapatan aku la kan.. aku mesti dalam nombor 8999.. hahaha.. ok la tu.. aku takde la burok sgt ye tak.. ahahaha... confident tu penting babe! biar la tak cantik pon.. confident that's wat keeping u alive! hahaha.. sudah la! :P

al kisah

2010-02-04T17:52:00.000-08:00

al kisah nye yang nak di jadikan cerita.. hari tu bos ajak pegi lunch.. memandangkan asik reject je invitation dia sblm ni.. so kitorg pon setuju la nak lunch ngan bos.. tgk dia pon mcm insist sgt nak belanja kitorg.. haha.. kitorg pon ok je la.. maklum dah hujung bulan.. hehe.. tp ktorang standby je duit kot kot dia tak banje ke kan.. kitorg pon standby 15hengget.. mcm2 lauk kitorg amik.. kitorg pon byr la sendiri sbb nya kitorg tak tau mcmana nak ckp bos byr.. melayang 15hengget.. tp takpe.. rm15 tu pon duit bos.. hahahah.. kire belanja jgk la tu.. tgh2 mkn bos tanya.. "kenapa uols dtg ofis hari2 ek?" erkk! aku yg salah dgr ke.. aku yg salah dtg ofis hari2 ni.. aku ngn sabit pon dah confuse.. apa bende sbnrnye ni.. ok takpe.. dah hbs mkn aku pon naik ofis.. smp2 ofis bos call.. dia kata.. "korang byr ek lauk td?" aku pon ckp la ya.. dia pon ckp lg.. "knpa korg byr.. ala.. knplah korg byr.. takper la.. lainkali je.." hahaha.. sentap jap uols.. hahaha...

alkisahnya lagi.. pagi2 td aku sampai ofis.. nmpk bos ngah bekpes kat bwh.. kitorg pon relax je la naik ofc.. sampai ofc bos call.. "nmpk jalan kat bwh td mcm tak semangat je..?" hahahah.. byk la dia punye tak semangat.. semangat kot aku dtg arini nak wat 3d.. hahahah.. pehtu nak dijadikan cerita.. bos mntk kad nama dia.. dia pon ckp mcm ni.. "turun la mkn brekpes.." aku pon ckp la.. "knp? bos nak banje ekkk.." dia pon kata "iya lah!" hahahaha.. kami pon dgn semangat nye turun.. ekek.. bos banje! ekekek.. hehhe.. tgh2 makan.. bos tanya.. "balik kol bape mlm td?" kitorg pon ckp la.. pukol 9.. dia pon ckp la.. "uish.. lambtnye.. knp tak smbg buat keje kat rumah?" sabit ckp pc kat rumah kecik.. screen kat ofis besar sikit.. hahah.. pehtu aku ckp la.. "takde la.. kalau balik kol 5/6 jam.." bos pon ckp la.. "balik la sblm jam..." untuk kali kedua.. aku confuse lagi sekali.. ini dah kali kedua bos halau kitorg balik ni.. tak pnh aku dgr bos suh balik awal.. BOS! U'RE THE BEST!!! hehehehehe...

itulah alkisahnya sebenarnye.. sentap uols dpt boss mcm ni.. adoi.. semoga dimurahkan rezeki nye.. *masalahnye rezeki dia mmg murah.. tp dia tak mampu nak handle.. terpaksa tolak.. :( kesian kan.. tak per bos! yang pasti kereta baru tetap ada! hahaha..

*kereta ni khas saya dan sabira buat untuk bos.. tribute to kereta bos.. LEXUS lg tau.. terima la.. roda tu mahal tu.. sebungkus 5hengget tu.. roda BARUM! hahahah...

when someone u love, loves someone else

2010-01-31T00:20:00.000-08:00

whats the worst thing could happen when someone u love.. loves someone else? an emotional of breakdown i would say.. of coz u'll feel bad about it rite? i will.. only tears can calm me down.. sometimes tears also cant help u out.. it's pathetic when u cant say or express ur feelings to the one u love.. its like u went for window shopping.. u can see.. u can touch but u cant have it.. bcoz its window shopping la.. u were not supposed to spent any money la.. that is y they call it window shopping.. :P anyway.. that is not the point.. the point is that.. "I LOVE YOU!!!" there.. i've said it.. owh wait!! i didnt say it out loud?? i only say it to my self.. not to the person i love.. shishhh.. how sick this feeling are.. tabah la hati..

the same old weekend

2010-01-29T19:47:00.000-08:00

hello weekend..
everyone is planning of having fun.. except for me.. haiyaa.. so pathetic.. being single and at home for the weekend.. in fact, for every weekend. NVM la.. got work to do pon kan.. maybe tomorrow.. would like to watch TOOTH FAIRY.. halamak! gaji blom masuk.. deym! gedeban dulu la :D

Dear Journal,
I miss my frens.. its been so long since we hangout.. and gossiping.. :( it feels like we are getting apart.. NO!!! hmm.. planning of buying some gifts for them la.. lama tak spent2 gifts for them.. like dulu2.. hihi.. lately i've been dreaming of arina.. maybe i misses her a lot.. hmm.. no komen about it..

permata dan kaca?

2010-01-23T04:35:00.000-08:00

susah ke nak identify permata ngan kaca?? kalau tgk betul2 la 2 material tu.. boleh je kan nak beza? kaca.. kaca la.. permata.. permata la.. knp kene ada peribahasa bezakan kaca dgn permata? kalau tgk dgn mata hati mesti boleh tau kaca yang mana.. permata yang mana? haihh.. hanya org yg sukar utk mendptkan cinta saja yg fhm.. :D lately ni, everything is about love.. boring lar.. love is in the air.. love is blind.. love this.. love that.. love love love..

i was too afraid..

2009-12-12T07:06:00.001-08:00

dear journal,

today i just realise that i was too afraid people just cant accept me for who and how am i.. and it really bothers me a lot.. and it brings -ve effects to me.. but if i'm not.. i will keep on hurting my own heart.. what should i do journal?

love,
me

sudah tua kah aku??

2009-11-13T08:44:00.000-08:00

hmm.. how old am i?? 22 yrs old!! still young maa.. but y is everyone is getting married.. and getting pregnant?? waaaahhh.. very cpt! isnt it happy when u've finally found ur soulmate.. get married.. have ur own kids.. bestnyeee!!!!! :D hahaha.. sudah kemaruk mau kawen yaa??? tdk lah.. just wondering.. do i have my own soulmate? is he handsome? ekekekeke... i hope i have one.. of coz u have!! everyone in this world are made in pairs.. dun worry nana.. ur time will come.. with Allah S.w.t willing.. :)

me and my work! study?

2009-11-05T05:16:00.000-08:00

wah!! sudah lama.. since my last post.. the graduation thang post.. well.. now that i've graduated with diploma.. and of coz kene kerja la kan.. duk kat rumah pon tak dpt apa.. and now.. here i am.. working with somo design and contract.. pelik kan? SOMO! maybe it is bcoz my boss are from pantai timur.. so dia tanak la nampak sgt SOKMO tu kan.. jadik la SOMO.. hahah takder la.. aku tak tau la knp SOMO menjd pilihan hati bos ku yang konon nyer dulu seorang top 5 student..(dia yg ckp..) heheheh.. anyway.. thats not the main story here.. alhamdulillah, keje kat SOMO ni ok.. saya sudah pandai guna 3dmax!! saya sukeee!! weee!! tq BOS! u're the best! hehehe.. firm aku ni.. client terbesar nye McDonald's la kan.. aku rasa.. almost semua McD stores yg ado kek m'sa ni... mostly, bos aku yang buat.. kalau korg nampak design yg ala2 zen.. ada kayu kayu tu.. haa.. tu dia la tu yg buek tu.. hehehe.. sonok jgk keje kat SOMO ni.. SOKMO manjang.. sgt flexible..!! hmmm.. now that i'm working.. and my job now is quite good.. do i need to further my studies? dilema skrg ni.. kalau aku keje.. dpt duit.. gaji pon dah ok.. kalau stdy.. mana dpt duit.. and lps hbs study.. blom tentu dpt keje mcm ni lagi.. akan tetapi.. seperti yg di cadangkan oleh bos.. kalau nak smbg study still boleh keje online bila dah terer ngan mcD.. hmm.. tawaran yg bagus.. akan tetapi.. mampukah aku?? hmmm.. itu yg menjd tanda tanya.. should i or should i not..?

my graduation

2009-10-23T22:24:00.000-07:00

hari yang ditunggu-tunggu sudah tiba.. dan berjalan dengan lancar sekali.. alhamdulillah.. with all the ups and downs of my 4 years of studies.. at last.. i've graduated.. sgt sgt terharu.. tq to all lecturers, the great teachers.. for all the supports..!

what did i do wrong?

2009-10-18T04:37:00.000-07:00

what did i do wrong? what makes he hate me so much?? y? dari aku sekolah sampai lah aku dah besar.. dah keje.. aku masih tak phm kenapa aku sentiasa ada masalah dgn family aku.. what did i do wrong that i deserve to be treat this way?? AKU.. seorang anak dan seorang adik.. sentiasa mengalah.. ye betul, aku kene hormat mereka.. sebab mereka lebih tua dari aku.. dan mereka adalah darah daging aku.. tp kalau aku sorang saja yg perlu hormat mereka.. tp mereka tak hormat aku.. apa aku dapat? ikhlas ke mereka menyayangi aku? ikhlas ke dia tanggung aku? apa yang aku perlu buat lagi supaya dia rasa puas hati?? perlukah aku keluar dari rumah ni?? baru puas hati dia?? perlu ke aku lepas dr tanggungjawab dia br puas hati dia?? itu ke yang dia nak?? atau dia malu ada anak mcam aku?? sbb aku gemuk! aku hodoh! aku juga tak pandai.. sbb tu ke?? aku duduk rumah.. kau bising.. aku dah keje.. kau bising jgk.. jd?? apa sebenarnye yang kau nak aku buat?????? ya allah... kuatkan lah semangatku untuk menghadapi semua ini.. sesungguhnya mereka adalah keluarga ku.. dan aku teramat memerlukan mereka.. amin..

a shoulder to cry on

2009-10-14T04:01:00.000-07:00

do i need a shoulder to cry on? my answer is yes.. dalam keadaan aku yang sentiasa terasa hati dan berkecil hati dengan keluarga aku.. i need a person who can lend me their shoulder to cry on.. ears to listen.. and fingers to wipe my tears.. di kala aku dalam kesedihan ke.. kan seronok ada org pujukkan.. hehe.. tp malang nye semua tu mimpi saje.. :D tp tak per.. bak kata paris hilton.. "dare to dream" hehehe.. hmm.. buat masa ni.. aku blom ada bahu yg aku nak tu.. so di kala tersentap mcmni.. terpaksa la aku duduk didalam bilik.. didalam gelap aku menangis(kerana itu saja yg dpt melegakan aku) sambil bertanyakan diri sendiri.. "kenapa? betul ke? perlu ke?" dan akhir sekali.. aku akan berkata.. "itu lah takdir hidup aku.. dan mungkin yg terjadi itu sememangnye berpunca dr aku.. dan aku sebagai anak.. mmg patut dipersalahkan.."

hmmmm.. nak makan roti la.. :D

happy birthday to myself!

2009-10-02T08:17:00.000-07:00

GO SHAWTY! ITS UR BIRTHDAY! WE'RE GONNA PARTY LIKE ITS UR BIRTHDAY! yeap!! i'm officially 22 today.. it was.. OKEY~ hehehe.. abg yan belikan baskin eskem kek! wee..my 2nd kek after A+I buddie's kek.. then.. hotlink bg free voice calls.. tp rugi je.. takde nak call sape2 pon.. :( call sheila je la for 1 hour td.. tu je.. hmm.. nak wat camne.. heheheh.. over all ok je.. esok sepatutnye nak beli present.. tp takde kereta.. hmm... bersabar je la jwb nye.. :(

Hari raya pics!

2009-09-26T07:25:00.000-07:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

2009-09-25T07:32:00.000-07:00

hello ppl! ( itupon kalau ada yg membaca.. heheh) since dah bekerjaya ni.. agak mls untuk menaip di blog.. ntah mengapa.. tak ngerti aku.. anyways.. selamat hari raya yaw! speaking of hari raya.. a bit sedey.. sbb hp ku tidak menerima sms yg berduyun duyun pon di mlm raya.. BORING!!! sangat sadis.. owh well.. as for every year.. takder apa yg lain.. pagi pakai baju raya.. makan di pagi raya.. bergambar beramai-ramai.. kemudian.. jam belum pukul 12.. dah tukar tshirt.. huhu.. ok ler tu.. bukan nak pegi mana pon.. tp raya tahun ni tak boring sgt.. ok je.. sbb hari-hari main card monopoly.. dan mereka(abg2 dan cousin2 ku) sangat obses dgn permainan itu.. hahaha.. dan seperti biasa.. daddy mmg sgt suke suruh kami bergotong-royong menebas dan membersihkan halaman kampung! huh! sgt tak sporting! and like every year.. pasti ada sahaja yg tidak sedap didgr.. cant they just leave me alone.. and as usual.. mummy will act like shes the perfect mother! (sorry to say.. but its true!!) and i'm the one yg nampak buruk perangai.. dalam byk2 cousin yg aku ada.. kenapa mesti aku yg mereka nmpk keburukannya.. sedangkan aku yg paling terbaik aku rasa!(bukan nak perasan.. tp itu yg aku sedar) aku sedar luaran aku mmg tak meyakinkan.. but y must they judge me by wat they see.. apa yg aku buat tak pnh siapa2 pon hargai.. kalau aku je.. semua buruk sokmo.. :(

baby tiut tangat!

2009-09-12T21:02:00.000-07:00

Cat Takes a Bath @ Yahoo! Video

M2M - The Day U Went Away (with lyrics)

2009-09-11T08:26:00.000-07:00

Attn : Tn Aswani (Shout mix)

2009-09-09T07:10:00.000-07:00

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my fault?

2009-09-05T10:09:00.001-07:00

is it my fault that i dun trust guys anymore?? y must they blame me for my act.. didnt they ever think of my feelings??? wat if i'm hurt again.. who will ever care??? they dun care! nobody cares.. so stop blaming me for not trusting u!

latest wishlist

2009-09-05T09:35:00.000-07:00

my latest wishlist is..

LOLLIPOPS HANDBAGS
MALINDI CROCS
SOME HANDPHONES..

the togetherness

2009-09-04T07:27:00.000-07:00

it has been quite some time since we hang out together.. the 3 of us.. finally, yesterday we 'buka puasa together'.. just me, alia and zaza.. too bad kak pah cant make it.. its not that always we can meet azalea.. lagi2 dia yg sms and ajak us out.. hahaha.. so we had sushi for dinner.. it was okey la.. hehe.. :P but still feels like eating chicken hartz buffet! emm.. yummy! these are few pictures that we snap.. sikit je.. :(

TLC - Dear Lie

2009-08-29T05:19:00.000-07:00

Dear lie
You suck
You said you could fix anything
Instead I'm fucked
You made things even worse for me
If I had balls I'd tell you get away from me
Guess I'm not smart
I let you unnerve me
I let you control me
Afraid the truth would hurt me
When it's you that hurts me more

[Chorus:]
Get outta my mouth
Get outta my head
Get outta my mind
Stop puttin' words in my head
Get outta my mouth
You're nothing but trouble
Get outta my life
Get out of me
Out of me (out of me)
Out of me
Out of me lie
Lie lie lie lie

Dear lie
You're dumb
You think you've got the best of me
You think you won
Misread my vulnerability
I've got your walls
Now get the hell away from me
I've learned your art
Won't let you unnerve me
Won't let you control me
The truth will only free me
And your lies won't hurt no
No more

[Chorus]

Lie lie
I've got
Your walls
Now get the hell away from me
I learned your art
Won't let you unnerve me
Wont' let you control me
The truth will only free me
And your lies won't hurt no
No more

[Chorus]

Lie lie
Dear lie
Lie Lie Lie Lie
Lie Lie
Dear lie

my first paycheck

2009-08-29T03:25:00.000-07:00

i am so happpppppyyyyyyy!!

K.E.R.J.A

2009-08-26T05:40:00.000-07:00

my life now is different.. wake up early in the morning.. more responsibility.. more panic attack.. more work to do.. and of coz more thinking! the boss is nice.. and the PROJECT MANAGER is cute.. hehehe.. oppppss.. anyway.. back to the work story.. it is way way too many project.. and it is always the last minute.. he said.. huh.. well.. i didnt get enough sleep today.. been working my ass of doing the 3d.. damn it is sooooo tiring.. sib baik boss masuk lmbt.. so cam curi curi tdo untuk few seconds la.. :D ehheeh.. apa2 pon sgt tiring. the end.

selamat berpuasa!

2009-08-21T05:15:00.001-07:00

new phase

2009-08-16T22:37:00.000-07:00

its going to be a new phase of being adults.. working.. earn my own money.. pay my own bills.. spend my own money.. spare my money for my parents.. etc.. Man..!! i think i'll survive! :)

i need luck!

2009-08-10T07:07:00.000-07:00

setelah berbincang dengan bebet tentang skrip yang ingin di ckp kan pada encik A.. aku pon mendail nombor yang diberikan oleh wawa kepada ku menggunakan hp 8310 pink aku tu.. 0(tett) 1(tett) 2(tett) bla.. bla.. bla.. hmmm.. nak tekan punat hijau ke tak.. tekan ke tak.. tekan ke tak.. bismillahirrahmanirrahim...... tettt(tekan punat hijau)

(tgh tunggu disana mengangkat teliponnya)
Encik A : hello..
aku : helo akum..(intro sedap sikit) boleh saya bercakap dengan encik A..?
Encik A : Bercakap..
aku : Nama saya N.. Saya dengar encik ada jawatan kosong untuk ID ya?
Encik A : ya.. ya.. saya ada mntk tolong dgn anak sedara saya untuk carikan..
aku : ha.. ya.. ya.. kawan saya ada ckp..
Encik A : Saya tak nak la iklan kan kat paper.. nnt yg dtg interview smp 300 org..
aku : owh.. saya ni fresh graduate.. saya dengan kawan saya nak cuba apply mcmana ya?
Encik A : Kalau mcmtu.. datang jmp saya la.. esok saya pegi kuching.. awk buat appointment rabu khamis atau jumaat la..
aku : okay.. okay.. mcmana kalau saya nak buat apptment tu ya?
Encik A : direct ke saya saja lah..
aku : baik. baik.. nanti saya comfirmkan dengan encik.. boleh encik sms address nya..?
Encik A : boleh.. boleh.. nnt saya sms..
aku : terima kasih en.A
Encik A : awk dgn kawan awak dua org ke.. atau awk berdua dengan kawan awk..?\
Aku : Saya berdua dengan kawan saya..
Encik A : Okay.. okay..
Aku : ok.. terima kasih en. A.. BYE
Encik A : ok.. bye

(few minutes later)

trett tett treett tet!

1 message received

opening...

SOMO DESIGN AND CONTRACT
bla bla bla.. damansara uptown 3.. bla bla bla..

reply..

kami jmp encik A jumaat petang pukul 3 boleh?

send...

(few minutes later)

treett tett treett tettt..

1 message received

opening..

ok! bawak portfolio sekali kalau ada..

reply..

ok tq.

send..

THE END

Q and A's

2009-08-09T07:34:00.000-07:00

1. Berikan 1 hobi yang paling anda gemari:-
- online!!! :D

2. Berikan 2 nama kawan anda yang paling rapat dengan anda:-
- papau
- ira

3. Berikan 3 jenis warna yang anda suka:-
- pink
- purple
- hijau

4. Berikan 4 nama orang yang paling anda sayang:-
- mum and dad
- abg yan
- papau! hehe
- satu tmpt kosong.. :D

5. Berikan 5 jenis sifat manusia yang paling anda benci:-
- berlagak bagus!
- Kedukut!
- ikan sendiri!
- PHD(Penuh Hasad Dengki!)
- poyoronos!

6. Berikan 6 benda yang mesti anda bawa sebelum keluar dari rumah:-
- DIRI
- purse
- shades
- kunci rumah
- handphoneS
- Pakaian :D

7. Berikan 7 destinasi percutian yang anda ingin suka kunjungi:-
- bandung is a nice place to shop :D
- to any beaches..
- disneyland!
- australia kot! ada koala bear! :P
- N/A
- N/A
- N/A

8. Berikan 4 kenangan yang paling anda tak dapat dilupai:-
- declaration id masa part 1!
- trip pegi pantai timur bus rosak!
- love life's
- etc.

9. Berikan 9 impian yang anda impikan:-
- byk duit!
- a better love life..
- happily ever after!
- holiday!
- kerja bagus!
- jadi cantik.. :)
- jadi hebat
- kereta baru! eheheheh
- jadi bos! :D

say whut?

2009-08-07T00:07:00.000-07:00

A sampling of some popular shorthand texting terms.

UG2BK . . . . . . . You got to be kidding
GBTW. . . . . . . . Get back to work
NMP . . . . . . . . . Not my problem
PIR . . . . . . . . . . Parent in room
GFTD. . . . . . . . . Gone for the day
FYEO. . . . . . . . . For your eyes only
BI5 . . . . . . . . . . Back in five minutes
DEGT . . . . . . . . Don’t even go there
BIL . . . . . Boss is listening
PAW. . . . Parents are watching
99 . . . . . . Parents are no longer watching
PCM . . . . Please call me
IMS. . . . . I am sorry
TOY. . . . . Thinking of you
KUTGW. . Keep up the good work
CID . . . . . Consider it done
FWIW. . . For what it’s worth
HAND . . . Have a nice day
IAT . . . . . I am tired
NRN . . . . No response necessary
4COL. . . . For crying out loud
WRUD. . . What are you doing
LMIRL. . . Let’s meet in real life
^5 . . . . . . High five

I am a boring person

2009-08-01T09:01:00.000-07:00

one thing dat i really really feel dissapointed with my parents is.. they dun know how to have fun! come on la! its not that i am blaming them.. but this is the reason y it is so hard for me to think out of the box! and it effects my confident level also.. less fun less creativity! and i am a boring person!! everyone got experience to tell.. but i dun! i'm not challenging! i always have to play by the rules!
i wanna have fun!! but they keep on telling me not to! dun do this.. dun do that..! this and dat..! bla bla bla!!! erghhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

some some

2009-07-30T00:39:00.000-07:00

this is wat i called feelings..

2009-07-30T00:33:00.001-07:00

sadness?

easy to be.. hard to dissapear

happiness?

easy to go.. hard to get

love?

easy to get.. difficult to forget

feelings?

easy to hurt.. hard to heal..

jealousy

u will never feel better!

to whom it may concern.. lagi..

2009-07-29T04:38:00.000-07:00

aku doakan semoga kamu insaf.. dan sempat mendapat kemaafan dr setiap insan yang telah kamu lukai.. (doa itu yang kamu mahu.. kan? itu doa aku untuk kamu..enjoy ur "NEW" life!)

p/s: hentikan semua kepura-puraan..dan berhenti menasihat.. kerana sesungguhnya kamu mmg sikit pon tak layak untuk memberi nasihat sedangkan diri kamu pon belum tentu betul nye.. suka ati kamu lah nak ckp aku berdendam.. aku seorang manusia biasa yg punya keburukan jgk.. dan aku mengaku hakikat itu.. dan berdendam adalah juga keburukan aku.. U dun have to be worried about my grudge if u have done nothing wrong.. Am i right my dear?

panic attack

2009-07-29T04:19:00.000-07:00

as usual.. grandma is here at home.. so here comes my routine.. cook.. cook.. cook..!!! and its BORING!! everyday is a boring day for me.. and every nite.. its a lonely nite for me.. haihhh... today i went out to with alia.. just to lepak.. yah! LEPAK! yerterday already lepak.. but tiday lepak again.. everyday is a lepak day for me.. huhuh.. anyway.. back to the story.. harini lepak dengan papau.. igt kan nak pegi OU.. tp PANIC ATTACK! before i went out with papau.. i told daddy that i will be back at 4.. i didnt know he wanted to go out.. so i just say 4.. but actually.. aisya's class finish at 4.30! and daddy was expecting me to be at home by 4!! damn!! sgt panic! yer la! mesti dia mengamuk sakan.. and starting to curse me if i were not home by 4.. and this is all bcoz of GRANNY!!! geram! bcoz of her i have to just sit at home! so i called dad.. and told him that i couldnt make it by 4.. (for the sake of my friends.. pls lembut hati) and yeay!! he's ok with it.. heheeh.. selalu mcmtu.. kalau panic mesti everythings gonna be just fine.. hehe.. so the lepaking continues with no panicking.. hehehe.. the end.

i'll be fine..

2009-07-23T03:34:00.000-07:00

after all that had happen.. i think i'm gonna be fine without him.. its just that i need time to calm down.. and to take it easy.. that is just wat it is.. people come and go.. and we need to move on.. there is bigger matter in the future to just sit and think about the past.. as everyone said.. life is too short to be wasted.. y waste? enjoy the moment while u still got the chance rite? :)

Karma

2009-07-19T23:41:00.000-07:00

Bukan karma-sutra. Bukan juga kamar-mandi. Atau kamar tido. Tp KARMA! org kata What goes around comes around. I do believe in KARMA.. But i ignored it.. and now, i think i'm going to take it seriously.. coz i think, my turn is up.. and i get wat i deserve.. So, to all the peeps out there.. when u do something.. pls remember KARMA..

Not Again!

2009-07-16T22:38:00.000-07:00

it even more pain to know dat u are actually JERK!
* its a waste of my time and tears!!
*One more of my biggest mistakes!!

kita tetap kawan!

2009-07-16T06:37:00.000-07:00

"Kita tetap kawan"

ouchhh! it hurts.. it hurts so bad sayang..
To hear that words.. its like.. dengar ayat keramat..! when "that" words appear in a relationship.. its not good! its not a good sign! its like giving ur partner a hint to break up. Untuk sekali lagi nya.. "Kita tetap kawan". Aku fobia[noktah]

to whom it may concern..

2009-07-15T08:17:00.000-07:00

dihargai dan menghargai

2009-07-12T05:36:00.000-07:00

its like when u are working.. and u were working ur ass off to impress ur bosses or trying to be successful person.. even though it doesnt really succeed.. but u were trying really really really hard.. but people just dun give a damn.. hmm.. how does it feel?? i tell u how does it feels! it SUX! it really SUX! u did something.. that people want u to do it. and u did it.. and they didnt appreciate or gives u credit for that.. but they keep on saying things.. its annoying okey!

situation 1
- aku sedang menumis sayur kacang panjang goreng telur.. tiba masanya untuk letak pati serbuk ikan bilis.. OPPPSSSS!!! tertumpah dalam sayur yang sedang ditumis! oh no!! aku cuba untuk keluarkan nye.. tp dia dah sebati ngan sayur.. nak wat camna.. jd lah masin.. (kejadian yang tak disengaja kan)
Ni yang aku dapat
- bongok! Masak sayur pon tak pandai! masin!
akhir kata
- it was an accident la BODOH!! kalau kau pandai sgt masak! masak sendiri la! aku dah masak pon kire bagus tau tak!!

situation 2
- aku mengambil secubit ayam goreng ketika makan.. secubit je pon..
Ni yang aku dapat
- sia-sia je pegi jogging!
Akhir Kata
- atleast aku pegi jugak jogging! tak macam kau!

situation 3
- aku sedang menonton tv.
Ni yang aku dapat
- Nana ni pemalas la! satu hari kat rumah apa dia buat?? masak 2 jam je.. lipat kain pon malam.. bukan nak menyapu rumah ke apa ke..
Akhir Kata
- (dalam pemikiran aku..) Bukan ke aku br menyapu rumah semlm?? ewahh.. kire bagus aku nak jgk masak untuk kau.. haa.. kire bagus jgk aku lipat kain tu.. kalau tak.. sapa yang nak lipat..??

susah sangat ke nak appreciate aku ni.. bukan semua anak mcm aku ni.. tolong mak aku masak.. lipat kain.. dgr ckp dorg.. duk umah jee... tak keluar sesuka ati.. atleast bg la kata2 yg sedap sikit.. contohnye

- sedap nana masak.. cuma sayur tu masin jer la..
- esok pegi jogging lg k.. boleh berjaya kalau selalu buat.. mkn pon kurangkan sikit..
- sapu rumah ni nnt nana.. dah start nak berhabuk balik dah ni.. (dengan lemah lembutnye)

megatron dan optimus prime mengamuk

2009-07-04T09:04:00.001-07:00

merujuk kepada perkara diatas.. megatron dan optimus prime mengamuk didalam rumah.. dengan nasib yang baiknya.. tiada kemalangan jiwa berlaku.. cuma getaran jiwa sahaja yang berlaku.. hihi.. di kala megatron menghamburkan kemarahan nye terhadap optimus prime.. bumble bee yang dalam keadaan terkejut mendiamkan diri sahaja.. kerana tidak mahu terkene dengan hamburan megatron yang mampu mengakibatkan getaran jiwa menjadi gegaran jiwa yang dahsyat..(ini bukan exagerating.. ini benar!) sam pula telah mula2 melarikan diri.. tinggallah bumble bee untuk meredhakan semua semburan. (dahsyat cite aku ni.. tuan punye transformers pon pening)

ok! enough with the crapped! this is real.. i was "dipaksa rela" by my dad to paint the house.. it was fun.. but only for a few hours.. after that.. sgt tired woooooooo... ini abg yan punya pasal la ni.. keje dia.. i pulak kene buat.. tp padan muka dia balik awal kene cat rumah jgk.. huhu..

arini agak best! sebabnye.. untuk first time jgk diabad ini.. we went out together dengan sempurnanya bilangan ahli keluarga! 5 orang anak beranak! harharharhar.. dengan satu MyVi.. huh.. mesti korang agak terpikir muat ke.. tau takpe!! muat kot.. tp aku agak kekepitan diantara kedua-dua abg aku la kan.. plus aku dikacau habis oleh abg aku.. mmg tak kasi chance lgsg kat aku! haha.. sapa suh montel.. kahkahkahkha.. but it was really nice la.. to go out together.. and had dinner together.. i think its been really really really really long time.. since we gathered together.. hehe.. so happy! :P owh ya la.. we went to Restoran Garuda masakan pinang.. la kot nama nye.. kat Chow Kit.. huhuhu... yummy!

changing of blog address

2009-07-01T22:31:00.000-07:00

disini dimaklumkan bahawa:

www.nanahawt.blogspot.com telah ditukarkan menjadi www.nadiahazeana.blogspot.com

*pls take note!

something to calm me down..

2009-07-01T09:13:00.000-07:00

frustrated and gloomy

2009-07-01T08:20:00.000-07:00

nothing can describe my feelings rite now[NOKTAH]

WALAUPON!

2009-06-28T01:34:00.000-07:00

DD nak BALIK!!!!!!

DD balik MINGGU DEPAN!!!

WALAUPONNNN!!!

:D xoxo <3

hari bermanja dengan mummy

2009-06-27T08:56:00.000-07:00

its been agak a while.. since i updated my blog with my stories kan.. stats with last nite.. i went to watch TRANSFORMERS! with alia and her mum.. wayang start kol 10.30pm.. imagine that i'm out on saturday nite.. and come home late at nite.. ha.. agak pertama kali rasa nye.. been out with my friends smp tgh mlm.. tp ok je.. bcoz alia's mum was there.. and alia did tell my parents we are going to come home late.. anyway.. back to the TRANSFORMERS story.. it was really great.. even if cerita tu agak lama klimax dia.. but it wasnt boring.. love BUMBLE BEE.. cute sgt.. and even cuter when sam were calling him BEE.. hehehe.. and masa dia merajuk jgk sgt cute.. hehe.. kesian dkt OPTIMUS PRIME masa dia mati.. sedeyy.. sedeyy sgt bile semua AUTOBOTS mati.. hehehe.. apa apa pon.. TRANSFORMERS sangat sangat sangat great!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehehe.. hari ini pula adalah hari manja saya bersama mummy..!! hihi.. daddy's not home.. he went to PD.. so abg sent me and mum to sogo! yeayy!! sogo yang sangat selalu sale itu! tapi yang pelik nye.. saya takde pon beli apa kat sana.. huhu.. tapi saya suh mak saya belikan abg saya.. sebab nye abg saya ni.. selalu pakai baju sama saje pegi deting.. so i said to mummy.. "mummy.. lets buy baju for abang.." and she said.. "okey jgk" jalan punye jalan punye jalan.. dengan mummy yang sgt fussy.. jadi saya pon memilih baju POLO yang agak mahal harga nye.. boleh dpt satu jeans kat MS.READ.. hehe.. tapi part yang plg best....... mummy agree beli perfume SHISEIDO ZEN yg aku nak sgt tuuuuuuu.. sgt wangiiii... mmmmm.. igt ke mummy nak beli yg small je.. tp dia beli jgk yg 100ml punye.. huhuhu.. tp sharing ngan dia la.. no problemmm.. sharing is caring!! hehe.. sayang pulak nak bukak the packaging.. hehe.. thx mum!! nnt nana dah keje.. i spent u pulak okek!! :D how lucky to be an only daughter! heheeheh... :D

perempuan lawa dan tak lawa.. apa kata lelaki?

2009-06-21T09:30:00.000-07:00

SYAIR DAN GURINDAM.... .
Kalau perempuan lawa pendiam
Lelaki akan cakap: woow, ciri-ciri isteri idaman…
Kalau perempuan tak lawa pendiam
Lelaki akan cakap: eh tak reti komunikasi betul
Kalau perempuan lawa berbuat jahat
Lelaki akan kata: mesti ada krisis dalaman nih…kesian
Kalau perempuan tak lawa berbuat jahat
Lelaki akan cakap: dah la tak lawa, perangai pulak macam sial…
Kalau perempuan lawa menolong lelaki yang diganggu
Lelaki akan cakap: heroin sejati…!
Kalau perempuan tak lawa menolong Lelaki yang diganggu
Lelaki akan kata: taktik nak ngorat le tu…
Kalau perempuan lawa dapat lelaki hensem
Lelaki akan kata: ok gak la….
Kalau perempuan tak lawa dapat lelaki hensem
Lelaki akan kata: kesian.. mesti kena bomoh lelaki tuh!
Kalau perempuan lawa ditinggal kekasih
Lelaki akan kata: buta kayu betul mamat tu….
Kalau perempuan tak lawa ditinggal kekasih
Lelaki akan kata:… patut pun kena reject…
Kalau perempuan lawa penyayang binatang
Lelaki akan cakap: perasaannya halus… penuh kasih sayang
Kalau perempuan tak lawa penyayang binatang
Lelaki akan cakap: sesama keluarga memang harus menyayangi…
Kalau perempuan lawa tak mau bergambar
Lelaki akan cakap: pasti takut kalau-kalau gambarnya tersebar
Kalau perempuan tak lawa tak mau bergambar
Lelaki akan kata: sedar pun diri…
Kalau perempuan lawa menuang air ke gelas lelaki
Lelaki akan cakap: caring sungguh….
Kalau perempuan tak lawa menuang air ke gelas lelaki
Lelaki akan cakap: nak tunjuk caring le tu….
Kalau perempuan lawa bersedih hati
Lelaki akan cakap: dont worry.. I will make u happy forever
Kalau perempuan tak lawa bersedih hati
Lelaki akan kata: sikit-sikit nak nangis!! mengada-ngada…
Kalau perempuan lawa hantar-hantar email
Lelaki akan kata: sukenya….
Kalau perempuan tak lawa hantar-hantar email
Lelaki akan cakap: balik-balik email dia… boring

bila kite syg org tu..

2009-06-18T02:27:00.001-07:00

Bila kita sayang orang tu
Kita terima je apa yang orang tu kata
Tp bila dia kata kita?
Hati kata takpe semua manusia tak sempurna...

Bila kita syg org tu
Kita tunggu dia lama pun x per
Tp bile dia tunggu kita??? Dia marah2
Hati kata ala adatlah ada yang menunggu dan ditunggu..

Bila kita syg org tu
Kita x tido pun x pe janji layan dia yg tgh bosan,
Tp bila kita bosan Ada dia layan kita???
Hati kata x pe dia busy kot..

Bila kita syg org tu
Kita gaduh ngan dia, kita diam je
Tp dia heboh 1 dunia
Hati kate x pe, dia tension tuu..

Bila kita syg org tu
Kita call nak cakap dgn dia
Tp dia gayut dgn org lain..
Bila jd camtu,
Hati kata x pe, dia ada hal nak cakap dgn kwn dia..

Bila kita syg org tu
Kita bercerita dgn dia, cerita ngan tunggul lg baik
Tp biler dia bercerita ngan kita..
Kita dgr, sepatah2 kita ingat
Hati kata x pe syg katakan..

Bila kita syg org tu
Kita n dia lapar
Tp kita bg semua roti kita kat dia
Hati kata, ala jagalah hati dia, sian dia..

Bila kita syg org tu
Kita sanggup bg dia rest bila dia letih,
Tp bila kita letih, dia nak jugak kita layan dia bila dia bosan..
Adil ke? Ati kata, ala bukan selalu pun..

Bila kita syg org tu
Kita jadi macam org gila dgr dia sakit,
Tp bila kita sakit, Dia siap bole kuar ngan kwn2 dia
Hati kata, ala x pe, x kn dia nak berkepit ngan kita 24 jam..

Bila kita syg org tu
Kita x penah pentingkan diri sendiri
Tp dia hpokrit tahap cipan gaban
Hati kata x per, dia mmg camtu kena lah terima..

Bila kita syg org tu
Nmpk lalat kat makanan dia, kita halaukan
Tp dia lak kalau Nampak lalat kat makanan kita, dia biarkan je
Hati kata, takpelah, takkan dia asik nk buat semua benda utk kita..

Bila kita syg org tu
Kita x sanggup tgk dia derita
Tp dia x prnh hargai diri kita,
Hati kata, tau x betapa kita sygkan dia?

Bila kita syg org tu
Kita sanggup tinggalkn dia selama2nya utk dia bahagia
Tp adakah dia tahu pengorbanan kita??
Hati kata, x pe, janji dia bahagia...

1,2,3,4 i love u

2009-06-16T21:45:00.000-07:00

Plain White T's - 1 2 3 4

give me more lovin then i've ever had.
make it all better when i'm feelin sad.
tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
barely gettin mad,
im so glad i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy,
as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.
(i love you)
give me more lovin from the very start.
piece me back together when i fall apart.
tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
best that i've had.
im so glad that i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.i love you
(i love you)
you make it easy, its easy as 1234
theres only one thing two do three words four you i love you
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
thats what ill do i love you
(i love you)
i love you i love you.
one two three four i love you.
(iloveyou)
i love you
(i love you)

current mood : frustrated, dissapointed, sad

2009-06-16T07:04:00.000-07:00

kecewa..

sedeyh...

sakit hati...

tak tau mcmana nak gmbrkan perasaan aku skrg ini..

hati hancur.. remuk..

harapan punah.. musnah bersama angan2..

kegembiraan pergi bersama kenangan..

Dear DD,

i didnt expect things to be like this.. (dengan pantasnye) i never knew the last time was the last.. i've always remembered u.. been missing u all the time.. been thinking of u all the time.. even though it doesnt ended the way we want it to be.. i'll promise my self that i will always pray for u.. i'm gonna missed u..

love,
Mem

Tamatnye kisah DD dan MEM...

Faham dan Memahami

2009-06-13T02:32:00.000-07:00

Weekend yang sangat bosan! owh ye.. I'M GRADUATING!! how excited is that?? YES! i knowww.... :P hehehe.. sangat gembira nye bila di atas exam slip aku tertera "STATUS PENGAJIAN: TAMAT". Alhamdulillah.. :)

Makin meningkat usia kehidupan.. makin susah nak percaya orang sekarang kan? Orang pon tak nak percaya kat kita jgk.. mcmana? Kenapa orang susah sangat nak paham aku? Nak suruh aku paham dorang.. tapi dorang tak paham aku pon.. kenapa aku nak kene paham dorg? pengalaman mematangkan kita.. and also.. learn from mistakes.. salah ke aku kalau aku cuba untuk berhati-hati? kenapa nak salahkan aku? kalau aku tak hati-hati and i become broken hearted?? bukan dorg kesah! bila aku berhati-hati.. tak puas hati pulak! come on la! aku sorg je ke yang pikir pasal perasaan orang lain dalam dunia ni???

semua kekecewaan

2009-06-10T01:35:00.000-07:00

macam malas2 je nak tulis blog lg.. sebab sapa pon nak peduli cite aku pon.. one of my 'kekecewaan' la ni.. huhu.. found out something about DD.. lagi satu of my kekecewaan.. being a penganggur also on of my kekecewaan.. having my niece here at home pon satu kekecewaan.. + j.Lo juga satu kekecewaan.. being left alone juga satu kekecewaan.. being a loser juga satu kekecewaan.. when u were trying the best to do something and people cant just appreciate it, is also satu kekecewaan.. appreciate others without others appreciate u.. are also kekecewaan.. loving someone who dun loves u with all their heart is also a kekecewaan..

Harini Dan Semlm

2009-06-05T00:10:00.000-07:00

Semlm Saya Pegi Genting! *Gambar akan diupload kemudian

HariNi Saya Nak Pegi Cut Hair!

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Wonderpet!

2009-06-03T05:54:00.000-07:00

i Hate This Part Rite Here!

2009-06-03T02:28:00.000-07:00

Yes! I hate this part rite here! i hate it when everyone is having a good time.. and i'm stuck here at home with these unpleasant situation.. stupid situation to exact! which is i have to hear to the annoying sound that came from the king! and the best part is.. aku kene duk rumah dan aunty and cousin aku berjalan sakan aku tak dpt ikut.. aku FRUST!!!! aku nak ikut~!!! aku dah bosan duk umah! tolong la..

To DD: I miss u. <33 a lot..

Convocation Mereka!

2009-05-30T09:17:00.000-07:00

Hari ini Saya berada di UiTM Shah Alam untuk meraikan konvokesyen rakan-rakan saya.. Best nye..!!! :(( sabar nana.. sabar.. ur time will come..

CONGATULATIONS YOU GUYS!! <3 HEART U GUYS!

current mood

2009-05-29T10:17:00.000-07:00

Lonely.

Missing.

Boring.

Enuff Said.

Farewell..

2009-05-27T07:39:00.000-07:00

Dear someone,

Since u are away starting tomorrow i will have to get use to it when u are not around.. missing u is the only thing i would do everynite.. thinking of u is the only thing i would be thinking of everytime.. <3-ing is the only feeling i would be feeling every minute..

Love,
Somebody

THINKING OF YOU - KATY PERRY

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed
You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...
stay

PUSH

2009-05-25T00:42:00.000-07:00

semalam hari ahad.. jadik buat apakah saya hanya duduk dirumah pada hujung minggu?? buang masa saja! sedangkan hari biasa pon tak boleh keluar.. baik keluar on weekend sementara masih ada org untuk menjaga j.Lo.. jadiknye.. semalam hari ahad.. saya pegi menonton cerita PUSH! sama BB.. sayep belanja! mmg dah lama nak belanja BB.. huhuhu.. anyway.. back to PUSH!

Dakota Fanning tu dah besar rupenye.. dedolu tgk dia berlakon cite war of the world tu kecik lg.. kuat menjerit plak tu.. skrg ni dah stylo dah.. huhuhu.. cite push ni agak slow mcm jumper.. tp ok la.. best jgk.. hero dia sgt macho.. tapi tak power la.. org jahat lagi power dari dia.. hampeh tul.. :P tak kisah la tu..
smlm sebelum keluar.. janji ngan mummy nak balik sebelum maghrib.. tapi tetiba rasa cam nak pegi pyramid.. so i called mummy and tell her that i'll be back before dinner.. heheh.. and she said OK! mummy cool la!! hehehe.. well, one thing i realize about my parents.. as long as i told them where i wanna go.. and wat time i'll be home.. their fine.. :) so.. we went to sunway pyramid.. just nak tgk sandals kat BANANA PEEL.. huhuhu.. quite nice.. takpe.. masuk wish list! tak mahal sgt pon.. rasa nye mampu tu.. hehe.. :P

to be.. or not to be..

2009-05-23T00:31:00.000-07:00

sebelum aku start menaip ni.. ingin di tekankan di sini yang title diatas takde kene mengena dgn journal aku arini ini.. disebabkan tak tau nak tulis tajuk apa.. jd aku pon tulis la tajuk yang konon dramatik sikit tu.. hihihi.. harap maklum! :D

bosan giler ari ni.. dah la ari sabtu.. free free je kat rumah.. adoiyai.. membazir hidup btul aku ni.. life is short.. y waste it? rite? ini sangat dramatis.. malam ni mummy and daddy nak pegi dinner.. aku kene duk umah lagi la jwb nye.. menemani si j.Lo.. ini la nasib aku.. igt ke nak pegi tgk wayang arini..cite night at the museum 2 kat bukit raja.. sbbnye nak jmp miza kan.. tapi.. rupenye miza duk subang je.. takjd la pegi.. tp dah book dah.. hehe.. takpe bukan byr pon nak reserve kan.. keluar dgn azalea je la kot ptg ni kejap.. Bibi pulak tak boleh balik harini.. kalau tak boleh ajak dia berpoya-poya.. we we we.. boleh gak aku pau secawan regular ice blended kat coffee bean kalau bibi ada.. eceh.. tarak baik tau! hihi.. perasaan ni rasa mcm nak pegi shopping.. tapi tu la kan.. nak pegi shopping pon rasanye takde apa yg aku nak beli pon.. lgpon, ongkosnya nggak ada.. so.. buat dono je la jwb nye.. hehehe.. eh! lupa la nak ceritakan.. aritu gi cameron highland kan.. dapat makan chocolate strawberry!!! yummyyyy.. masa tu.. perasaan ni.. bahagia gilerrr.. hahah.. tak boleh bla.. mkn choc strawberry pon nak bahagia.. saje nak exagerate sikit.. eheheh.. teringin nak pegi genting.. tapi.. mummy tamau pegi.. nak ajak abg yan pon blom tentu dapat.. dah lama giler kot tak pegi genting tu.. rasanye mau 10thn.. hahaha.. aku ni nak kata duk kampung tak.. tapi gaya nye tu.. mcm duk kampung je.. anyway, tetiba terpikir.. sebenarnye buat blog ni untuk apa yer?? setgh org rasa.. tulis blog ni poyo.. sbbnye.. kite tulis pasal diri kite.. apa yang kite buat setiap hari.. ape yg kita borak.. apa yg kita pikir.. every detail pon kite akan tulis dalam blog.. mcm yang aku buat ni.. some ppl.. buat blog untuk share pengalaman or pendapat.. but for me.. it depends on apa kegunaan blog ni pada org tu.. if they think their life is interesting and they wanna share their story with others.. y not? kan? tp dalam case aku ni.. life aku takde la interesting mana pon.. aku ni mengada badak je nak buat blog ni.. bukan ada org nak baca pon.. hahaha..

sgt meng-keciwa-kan!

2009-05-22T02:38:00.000-07:00

keciwa nye hari ini.. alia ajak pegi tgk wayang ok today! cite PUSH! not sure wat the movie is all about.. tp check kat website tgv mcm ok je.. but the thing is. the is nobody at home yang boleh look after this j.Lo.. so frustrated.. abg chot belom balik.. abg yan lg la. jgn harap nak balik awal.. heheh.. mummy? mana mummy ni.. tak balik lg.. waaaaaaaaa.. anyway.. harini aku masak ala kadar je.. masak heboh heboh pon.. j.Lo bukan nak mkn beriya sgt pon.. so aku pon buat la sambal belacan untuk dia.. dia kata sedap.. wahh.. kembang lg dah aku ni.. mlm td dia ckp ikan masam manis aku sedap.. kembang jugak.. waakakakak.. perasan la lu ni minah.. j.lo tu nak amik ait kau je.. pasal kau dah sesusah masak untuk dia.. hehehe.. tak kire la.. janji dia ckp sedap.. ye tak? huhuhuhu...

jokes of the day

2009-05-21T22:12:00.001-07:00

Subject: Chinese Names

Caller: Hello, can I speak to Annie Wan (anyone)?
Operator: Yes, you can speak to me.
Caller: No, I want to speak to Annie Wan!
Operator: You are talking to someone! Who is this?
Caller: I'm Sam Wan (someone) and I need to talk to Annie Wan! It is urgent.
Operator: I know you are someone and you want to talk to anyone, but what is this urgent matter about?
Caller: @#$... just tell my sister Annie Wan that our brother Noel Wan (no one) was involved in an accident. Noel Wan got injured and now Noel Wan is being sent to the hospital. Right now, Avery Wan (everyone) is on his way to the hospital.
Operator: Look, if no one was injured and no one was sent to the hospital, then the accident isn't an urgent matter! You may find this hilarious but I don't have time for this!
Caller: You are so rude! What is your name?
Operator: I am Saw Lee (sorry)!
Caller: Yes! You should be sorry. Now give me your name!!!

saya nak..

2009-05-21T20:49:00.000-07:00

ku katakan dengan indah with lyrics

2009-05-21T11:12:00.000-07:00

its for those yang terasa diri dia selalu menyakiti hati aku ataupon hati org lain.. this song goes for u.. ENJOY.. :)

hari ni..

2009-05-20T01:00:00.000-07:00

hari ni.. sama mcm hari-hari bermulanya cuti aku.. bangun pagi.. sidai kain..(since aku cuti ni.. semua org dah tak reti nak buat keje sendiri dah.. aku gak kene wat) breakfast + tgk tv.. masak untuk "J.Lo" a.k.a Granny.. lunch.. tgk tv lg.. online.. tido.. bangun.. masak untuk dinner.. dinner.. tgk tv.. online.. tido.. and pusing balik pada rutin yang sama.. hailoorrrr.. i wanna go holiday!! mummy.... i wanna go holiday.. pls pls pls.. can can can.. laaaaa.... hailaa.. nak holiday la sgt.. nak hangout ngan member pon dah tak boleh.. Daddy ikat aku guna J.Lo.. hah!!! saje la tu tak bg aku keluar.. :(( sedeynyeeeee..... atleast bg la aku rasa cuti yang masih fresh lg ni.. hampehh..

hari ni.. menu tengahari adalah.. sayur kobis masak lomak(mlm td punyo.. ado xtra.. tak baik mombazir..) ikan goreng masak acar a.k.a taucu.. dan juga ikan masin kegemaran j.lo! wuhuuu.. tu saje la yg aku mampu.. hehehe.. jadik laa... janji porut konyang!

hari ni.. daddy pegi penang.. weee!! when the cat is not around, the mice take charge!(ontah botul ko tak botul ko ayat den ni.. bantai kan ajo) heheheh.. thinking of hanging out with my frens.. tp awal2 dah kene warning.. "jangan tinggal opah sorg2 kat umah".. perghhh... panas ati den.. tak po.. tak po.. den kuar mlm la.. huhuhuhuhuhu...

hari ni.. dah janji ngan papau nak lepak.. plus dah ajak yuyie and kak pah.. papau mcm no hal la kan.. tp tak tau la pulak yang lain.. tapi kalau aku keluar lepak ngan dorg mlm ni.. sapo nak teman mummy masak?? alah.. not that i always leave her alone to cook.. kekadang je.. hari ni saje la.. can la.. can la.. :D heheheheh...

orang buat blog.. aku pon nak buat blog..

2009-05-18T23:42:00.000-07:00

this is wat happen when org lain buat blog.. aku pon nak buat blog.. ujung2nye.. tak ada apa yang interesting pon.. bak kata en.Dd saya.. mengada badak.. hahahah.. tak pe la.. mana la tau kan nnt ada org nak baca blog aku ni.. update je la.. hehehe..

finally

2009-05-18T06:33:00.000-07:00

finally.. i have finished my studies.. 4 yrs is really a long time!! boleh lah concentrate sikit kek blog ni.. lama tak update.. lg pon.. bukan ada org nak baca kan? ekeke.. takpe lah.. syok sendiri je la aku ni.. eheheh.. anyway.. happy tu happy jgk.. but still got things to worried.. we are not getting younger.. there is so many things that i need to think.. such as.. further my studies.. or get a job to pay back my loan.. as days goes by.. and i am getting older.. next step dah kene pikir pasal.. searching for MR.RIGHT.. then get married.. itupon kalau ada org nak.. or dot dot dot.. hahahah.. apa2pon.. i'll be upgrading my blog later.. cr space dulu.. huhuhu.. seeya later..

spice up my blog

2009-04-05T00:16:00.000-07:00

i think i need to spice up my blog la kan?? so dull.. so boring.. so zero! and so inside the box! but no time to think of it la.. nnt la. bila dah abis belajar nnt.. mmg perabis la blog aku ni.. aisey.. masalahnye.. bile agaknye nak abis kan?? warghhhhhh...

coming to an end..

2009-04-03T07:19:00.000-07:00

sorry for the late updates.. anyway,kalau aku update pon.. ada ke org nak baca? hehe.. syok sendiri je aku ni.. anyway.. back to the main topic.. "coming to an end.." means.. i'm finishing my studies.. owh god.. i really hope i'll pass this sem.. its been a long 4 years.. and aku dah sgt penat.. ya allah tolong la lpskan aku sem ni.. this is my last sem and i'm still in a box.. this is not gooD! i really hope i can finish my work on time.. boleh ke??? dengan sketch up yang aku blom terror nak guna.. owh god.. owh god.. need all the miracles rite now.. need all the supports..

nak tau tak.. aku sedey sgt.. bila pikirkan balik.. sem ni aku mmg berabis duit.. utk printing je aku akan spent almost rm500! blom tambah duit sara diri aku lagi kat sana.. duit furniture lagi.. rm 300.. kadang-kadang tu nk mntk duit ngan mummy pon segan.. tp nak wat camne.. keje kene buat.. duit dah byk berabis.. tp aku ni blom tentu scorer.. sedey sgt.. hampa nye.. tak tau nak ckp mcmana lagi dah.. kenapa lah aku ditakdirkan jadi lembap.. :( harap-harap aku lepas sem ni.. berharap sgt..

super duper worried

2009-03-20T05:22:00.000-07:00

its been a while.. Lagi.. since i wrote in my blog.. di saat-saat kritik ini.. aku masih lagi blur! owh god.. pls wake me up.. come on nana!! wake up! 3 weeks left.. pls do ur best.. this is ur last chance! people!! pls pray for me! pls pls pls pls.. i really need the prayers.. takut sangat.. takut pointer yg dah mmg tak seberapa jatuh.. takut kawan-kawan saya akan kalahkan saya(bukan tanak dorg naik sama.. but, to motivate urself.. need to think that way la kan.. ) i am super duper worried! semuanye slow sem ni.. design aku pon semakin kurang kemantapan nye.. what should i do??? ya tuhan.. tolong la bukak pintu hati aku ni.. dapat aku rasa kan..

the boring weekend!

2009-02-23T00:35:00.000-08:00

it was.. i think my second weekend kat sri iskandar ni.. sgt membosankan.. takde sapa pon nak tanya khabar saye! saye sedey!!! :( duk meratap je la kat tepi tingkap.. melihat si kekasih dtg ke kolej mengambil si buah hati nye.. frust i.. hahahaha.. tp yang pasti weekend sgt bosan..

aritu sgt kelakar.. pagi jumaat yang seronok sbb takde klas aku cuci kain.. sudah tu aku sidai la kat ampaian luar.. memandang hari sgt panas.. mmg relax la sidai kat luar.. smp ke petang panas nye.. so relax la.. siap boleh tgk jumper.. jap lg.. tgh tgk jumper.. aku pon sekali terkena aura jumper tu.. pasal nye.. tak pasal pasal ujan turun dengan pantas nye.. aku ngan riesha apa la.. jumper terus ke ampaian.. tak hengat punye laju aku lari.. agak-agak kalau aku masuk lari 100 meter sekolah boleh la dpt num 3 ke.. wakakakakaka.. at least aku depan riesha.. hahahaha.. tgk jumper nye pasal.. dengan kitorg-kitorang sekali jumper.. ehehhehe..

bawalah ke hari sabtu..bersambung la kisah aku yg membosan kan..
main game.. buat ID.. main game.. buat ID.. tp tak siap2 jgk ID aku.. aisey.. ari ahad br buat THESIS.. itu pon.. tak smp habis satu bab.. stgh bab je.. ahahahah.. giler pemls aku ni..